recovery

Hello pals!
It’s already been 3 weeks since I had surgery. The first week was the worst followed by the second being irritating because I had no patience and wanted to just be better. Now I’m feeling pretty healthy just still very tired! I’ve worked out twice and am just getting an appetite back.
I ended up being scheduled for surgery the morning after my pre-op appointment because I was getting so sick. Glad it’s over that’s for sure! My gallbladder was infected but no stones. My hubby and I spent our anniversary (the day after surgery) with his parents at the casino. We had fun but I”m sure I paid for being too active too soon. By that Monday I was miserable. I bet I was still running on anesthesia all weekend! I must have because I hardly remember what we did all weekend!
Take care every buddy!!

BE HEALTHY

Hi friends! I even have some new friends who I have not yet met! I took a break from dietville and have started losing some weight. Ironically instead of feeling healthy I’ve felt sick! One more path of irritating illness to get through! Next week I’m having my gallbladder out. This might be why I’ve felt crappy for some time! Fever, chills belly pain! I do hope that this will be it! I automatically blame any sickness on depression or anxiety. Yet, I’m not feeling depressed or anxious! I know that worrying isn’t trusting God and I’m just done with it! Our health is so very affected by what we eat and do. Why does it take me so long to believe it? We have to take care of our bodies. No one else can do it for us. Obesity contributes to so many health problems. Just 30 pounds puts us at risk. If you’re like me, I knew I was over weight but” not that bad”. Yea, right! I’m not as fat as when I was on bed rest holding 40 pounds of fluid with a baby in my gut!
he he, I’m just starting to understand my old way of thinking. I also see why there are some of you buddy slimmers who only have 10 or 20 pounds to lose and are concerned. I used to look at things only esthetically when that’s a piss poor reason to want to be healthy. Some minor health problems that have not allowed me to”feel good” after knowing how it feels to “feel good” (exercise, energy to keep up with life). When that’s gone, it sucks. I am 5-3 216 pounds. There is no way that this is being kind to my poor body! Now that I really know this, I’m excited to feel better and exercise regularly again. There is no guarantee that we will get the chance to “get healthy” again my friends. We have to just do it.
So, here’s to you!! GET HEALTHY………. while you still can!! After I recover from surgery I’m coming back to kick my own butt! It’s not just about pounds and inches though, we have to keep our insides healthy! there are consequences or rewards for our choices.
I know I have to remember that. Now I’ll get off of my soap box.

Have a Happy Day!

workin it!

Hey guys! I’ve been working more hours at curves for 2 weeks now. I feel great! At least 3 work outs per week! I swear I just can’t sit still for very long at home!! The days are flying by. I’m nor losing any weight in fact I’m gaining but I know that muscle weighs more than fat. One of our members yesterday complimented me said my face was looking thinner. Anyway, now I get home at 7:00, clean up the family’s dinner mess and then by 8:00 I’m ready to eat dinner! I have to quit this right now. I’m sure this is why the scale is going up instead of down. My energy level is through the roof! I even stay up until midnight watching TV. I used to go to bed shortly after the kids did! I feel like I”m finding a very nice balance in my life. I know a huge part of this, (if not all) is because I’ve gotten to know the Lord. It’s way easier to remember what’s important and whats not. I used to be such a worrier!! I hope everyone is doing well!! I know I don’t get on here as much as I used to but I do think of you!!

Sedated Monday!

he he for real!! I’ve taken a day of R&R today. I saw my Pain dude Doc in St. Cloud today. I got some more steroid injections in my low back to help with my Stenosis pain. The good news is when he was checking out my low back and SI area he said ” have you lost some weight?” Of course this made me happy!! You know my dedication is like a roller coaster but I do believe that I’ve made a positive life change. I am becoming more and more content with my life. The week days are becoming as busy as the week ends. Mom’s Club has been such a treat. I have a couple pals that I usually see weekly now. We weigh in. I bring my scale in my bag where ever we’re meeting!! Dorky huh!! Well, I hope everyone is doing Super!

Monday is over!! Be Happy!

Bad Girl

Huh, actually I’ve been a good girl but I thought it would be fun to say. I’ve just been a bad team-mate to my Rock Stars. I have to make a bigger effort in taking this weight loss seriously. The scale moved in the wrong direction but I was measured on Thursday and I had lost 7 pounds and 4 3/4 inches. I’m gaining muscle!! My back has been giving me grief again so I”ve been taking it easy. I will be walking though. I have to go now, I have 5 kids today instead of 3. My nieces are staying with us. I’ll post pictures when I can stay up late enough to have the time!!!

xoxoxoxo

Cheater, Cheater Brownie Eater!!!!

Do any of you remember that saying or was it just one of those really goofy things my siblings and I came up with on our own?

Cheater, Cheater Pumpkin Eater?? OHhhhh yea that probably from Peter, Peter Pumpkin Eater !!

Anyway……………….. now that I have that figured out I can move on.

I made Brownies last night the kind with caramel in them! I’m not even going to try to think of how many I ate. Besides that, on Wednesday I made home made chocolate chip cookies!! Can you believe I managed to maintain?

I want to be able to make this stuff for my kids but I can’t seem to keep my chubby fingers away from them!! My kids like healthy snacks too. It would just be nice for them to have a few memories of their mommy baking them goodies and then NOT eating all of them!!! he he I don’t really eat all of them. (just a lot of them).

Been walking and staying active! Feeling good!! Some pain in my right Glute and down my leg but it’s bearable. I’m very thankful for my health! Don’t ever let stress get to you so badly guys. Eat a pan of Brownies instead!! JUST KIDDIN!!!!!!!!!

My plan for the day is to be a dork and take this cart my Granny gave to me to our Family Dollar Store. It’s only a couple of blocks from our house. On the way there I can fit 2 kids in it and Charlie can help push. On the way home it will be full of stuff like kitty litter and TP!!

This cart isn’t like a grocery cart. (I”m trying to make myself feel better) It’s ridiculous to load up my van, buckle the kids in to drive 2 blocks!! I have to get over the feeling like a dork thing!! Everyone in town will soon be searching for a cart like mine!!!

We’ll see if I can start the trend. I should get moving! Maybe people will throw money to me while I”m pushing my cart to the store!!

Have a Fab day!!

oops!

Hi friends!
I have so much I want to share right now! As I mentioned before I recently found out that I am not dieing of some horrible disease or disorder! The stress monster almost ate me alive!!

No kidding. Real, intense, pain and suffering consumed me due to my own selfish pride. As I’m growing as a Christian the light just came on thanks to a bible study I’ve attended twice. Tonight I realized what “pride” meant. The Lord has his way of revealing things to us as we’re ready that’s for sure!! We are all sinners, I knew that. However, I had no idea how lost I was until a few hours ago. Reading how we life is supposed to be a struggle, full of pain, NOT A GOOD PLACE anymore since our friends Adam and Eve chose to try things on their own. Wow, I’ve been beating myself up for not being grateful every minute of everyday for all of the blessings that God has given me. My own pride has made me so sick and full of pain because I was trying to do things my way!! Today, Thy Will Be Done!! Our Father knows we’re weak and full of sin. I didn’t have to struggle! He loves us unconditionally and has a place for us. All we have to do is believe and trust that Jesus Christ died for our sins. Nothing can take this away from us!! So much is clear to me now. I had to be ready to see what I’ve become and to know it’s alright. Just as I know I have a place in heaven with God. I know that I have just set foot out of this life I was struggling to make. God did not give me the experience of losing Lindsey so I would hate myself for not feeling grateful every day for my sons. Learning that our lives are supposed to be filled with turmoil, supposed to be hard has made me a happy lady!! This life to me is good! This life to me now knowing all I have to do is let go and just Be is beautiful. God knows what we need. If we let him guide us we have all the peace we need. Another spiritual awakening indeed! Weight loss, is this a pride issue for me? I don’t know yet. I know I want to do this for my health. I would think just as alcohol or drugs poison our body so does too much food. Do I want to lose weight for the right reason? Is it for my health or is it so I can feel more attractive? It’s interesting how in 2 weeks I seem to have started shrinking! Two weeks ago I went to my first study! Gods Word has made me more content. Maybe I’m not trying to fill a gap with food. The Lord is working in my life this I know!! Just had to share this with you my friends!! I’ve been studying The Bible for several months but in this new study group I’m attending we’re going over The Stranger On The Road To Emmaus by John R Cross. The point of this book is to study the main theme of the Bible. The teachings are directly from the Bible.
Anyway this has been such a gift to me that I wanted to let anyone who might be interested in learning Gods Word know of this source. Nothing has ever been more powerful to me.

Good night and God bless…………

The final answer

Guess what buddy’s! I’m not unhealthy!! There is no evidence of a major neurological disorder. The Doc said that she believes my pain may be from tension from stress. Can you freaking believe it?????????????????????

Ugh, I don’t know if I should laugh or cry!! So, I did both yesterday! I’m going to try my darndest to slow down a bit. I freak if my house is messy etc. Just though I would update!!

Gotta go!

shorty!

Since I mean to write just a short blog I’ll probably be here blogging for a half hour!!
I do need to get ready to go. I”m dropping my little boys off at Grandma’s house today so I can go to my Neurologist appointment tomorrow in Mpls. I’m having EMG’s done on both arms and finding out results after that. I also have a Chiropractor appt today. I would like to consult with him about having my SI nerves burnt. I so look forward to being comfortable again!!!
My friend and I walked last night a bit over a mile and I have blisters the size of my little toe on my little toe’s! Walking felt good! I could feel the burn on my tubby lil knees!! I can totally see how walking would shape me up!! After Curves work outs I get soooo sore!! Ugh, I really have to go!! Kids are crying, need a shower etc.
Have a great day!!

CLICK

Hey Buds!

I’m feeling pretty optomistic today about my weight loss. I lost 6 pounds this week! I’m not sure what all is factoring in here (maybe because I’ve stopped doing steroid shots) I don’t really mind as long as it’s working!! I do watch my carbs but other than that I’m eating sensibly many times a day. It seems to be working!! I also keep myself moving with house work or playing with the kids.
Unfortunately every time I work out at Curves lately I end up hurting pretty bad. Maybe I need to tune down my work out. I’m going to go ride stationary bike when I’m done lolly gagging on here. Just this much loss though has given me a better attitude. There are so many horrible things out there to put in our body (that taste really, really good) These things just aren’t for me anymore!! I’ve ate healthy for long enough to feel the side effects of this chemical carb crap!! Ugh!
After a binge on that stuff I feel weighed down, depressed, tired. Eating fresh veggies and fruit I can almost feel the hydration of these foods in my body right away. I’m becoming a natural freak!! I used to eat canned fruit in syrup and think it was ok for me. After having fresh produce I almost gag on the mushy tasteless crap!! I’m surely not saying I don’t eat bad things. I still love Chocolate especially when I”m PMSing! Yesterday I was going to allow my self a free day. Have what I wanted in moderation. We were at a grad party. I had one bite of cake and it just wasn’t worth it! I still found myself going for more protein because I know I feel better when I put these things into my body. Later we stopped at my Granny’s house where she offered Oreo’s and Donut’s etc. I did eat some Oreos (no milk) these used to be major down fall for me. They just didn’t taste great anymore!! I think I would have enjoyed some fresh pineapple more! I think I ended up eating 4 (as I’m eating wondering why I didn’t just quit). The moral of the story is that my taste for food is changing for the better!! Why should a treat to myself make me feel like poo? The past 2 weeks when I think I need a treat, I take a hot bath (which shortly is invaded by little boys jumping in). Something clicked for me recently. Here’s to all of us finding our CLICK and sticking with it. I think our little family is off for some fishing today. Fun in the sun!!
I’ll let cha know how it goes!!

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